A Letter to the One Who Thinks She Is Not Ready…..

I have been blessed to be mentored by the wonderful author and wise woman Gail Burkett, as together we hold women through the 9 Passages- Life Spiral. 

Part of this training Gail has been asking us to write letters to hidden/lost parts of ourself. I’m sure many of you have written letters to your child, teen self…but have you ever written to your imposter self?

I invite you to explore this, or read yourself my letter….

Letter For the Woman Who Walks Between Worlds

Dearest Beloved,

I know you.

You are the voice that arrives just before I open the circle…
just before I speak the truth that trembles in my chest…
just before I name the price, share the offering, or claim the path I walk.

You whisper,
“Who do you think you are?”
“Someone else knows more.”
“You’re not ready to hold this.”
“They will see through you.”

And for a long time, I listened.

I made myself smaller so you would feel safe. I softened my edges, diluted my knowing, waited for a moment when I would finally feel “enough.”

But that moment never came….because you were never meant to be satisfied.

You were not created to help me rise. You were created to help me hide.

And yet… I do not reject you.

Because I see now;
you were born in the places where I was unseen, where my power was too much, where my truth was not mirrored back with safety.

You became the guardian at the threshold.

But hear me now:

I am no longer the woman who needs guarding from her own power.

I am the woman who has walked through fire.
Who has sat with grief, with illness, with death and rebirth and has returned each time carrying medicine.

I am the woman who knows how to hold others, because I have learned how to hold myself.

I do not need to be the “most qualified” to be deeply, powerfully real.

My work is not built on perfection… it is built on presence.
On lived truth, on the courage to stay open when it would be easier to close.

You tell me to wait.

But the women I am here for are not looking for perfection.
They are looking for honesty and depth. For someone who has walked the path and can sit beside them in the dark.

And that…I already am.

So this is what changes now…

You may walk beside me, but you do not get to silence me.

When you say “you’re not ready,” I will answer, “I am already on my way.”

When you say “you’re too much,” I will answer, “I am exactly as I need to be.”

When you say “who do you think you are?” I will answer “I am the woman who remembers.”

I do not need to earn what is already mine to carry.

So I will speak. I will lead. I will create. I will receive.

I may still feel fear, but I no longer let fear decide.

You are not my enemy, but you are no longer my guide.

With steadiness, devotion and truth…I step forward anyway.

much love, The Woman Who Remembers