Chemo round 2, Dark Moon, Deep Ceremony, Reclaiming Surgery

Rachael Crow Blog

This dark moon was a potent one for me!

The day before chemo I had a swim at Amroth with two girl friends….in honour of my Cancer Sistar Sally who sadly never made it for a cold swim after us both saying we would give it a go for the last year or so! So I have decided to keep it up for myself and in Sallys name! It was a beautiful sunny morning, the water was bloody cold so there was much swearing and shouting to help me ease into the water- under my acupuncturists instructions I didn’t stay in for too long, but I did feel SO INVIGORATED afterwards and was very happy to crack open my hot flask of tea in the sun and relax on the beach after- fully dressed of course!

Then Friday was chemo day, listening to the Chemotherapy Companion from Hemi Synch ❤️ visualising chemo as a love potion, created with love… especially for me. Chemo as love medicine 💛❤️💛

With each drop going into my body I was imagining drips of LOVE, LOVE, LOVE…

Arriving home from hospital I began to prepare for my Dark moon offering 🙏🏻🌍🌒 scroll by the photos if you’re squeamish!

Earlier in the week (on my birthday to be exact!) I was able to go back to Swansea and collect my ovaries, since I had arranged for them to be kept for me after the hospital had finished biopsying them. Because of my surgery recovery and then starting chemo, collection hadn’t been easy to arrange- but I seized the opportunity and got my Birthday Ovaries! How many people can say they got ovaries for their birthday???? (I also went to the fabulous V Hub for lunch and went wig shopping!)

You’ll see from the photos they labelled the bags wrong, there were definitely two very large ovaries in the big bag!!

So that evening, after my wonderful hubby dug a hole under my rose bush, I cleansed myself with home grown sage, made prayers and began with offerings of my moon pads and moon sponge- I couldnt fit them all in, so I decided I will keep some for other rituals/ceremony/give aways!

Next in went my hair that I had shaved off for the “Big Shave Fundraiser”- again smudging, offering prayers of thanks for my amazing body, my beautiful hair (that will grow back!), creating a nest for my sacred ovaries.

Now for my ovaries, plus the tubes and my omentum that was also removed, sadly everything had been sliced for biopsying, although I was able to put the peices of my ovaries back together, once more smudging, praying, letting go… giving thanks for my miraculous body, thanks for the babies my ovaries helped produce, honouring these creative organs that lived inside me for 48 years, that brought me so much wisdom, the wisdom of my female hormones, my wise blood, my wise body, my wise womb, honouring my ancestors, my matrilineal line, asking that these offerings be accepted and transformed by our Earth Mother, by my ancestors….letting go, letting go, letting go…. sprinkling them with rose petals gathered by myself and friends over the summer….

Covering with earth and a heart stone my son brought me from the beach ❤️

This is how we reclaim surgery, make it sacred, make it ritual, make it yours.


Rest in peace ovaries. You served me well 🙏🏻💛


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Why Does Mummy Bleed?  By Rachael Crow, art by Stephanie Green, A beautifully illustrated book aimed at children, age 2 upwards, to explain about why mummy has periods and how they can support mummy with her cycle.
Menarche, A Journey into Womanhood by Rachael Crow- A mums and girls guide to celebrating her first period; includes menarche (first period) stories, the connection to the moon, understanding your cycle, menstrual tips, suggested books and poems.
Thirteen Moons, complied by Rachael Crow- A 250+ page book, Thirteen Moons includes a Moon Journal for you to fill in and chart the connection between your cycle and the moon, as well as containing many articles by inspiring and amazing women, poems, art, stories and much more!
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Deepening Woman with Rachael Crow & Eartha Love. Combining womens rites of passages with deep shamanic practices. Deepening Woman Teachings will guide women though the Nine Passages /Life Spiral of womanhood, as well as including menstrual recapitulation, rites of passage ceremonies, shamanic journeys, meditation, Red Tent and Moon Lodge wisdom, journaling, circling, chanting, crafting, touching nature and connecting with our ancestors.
Broken Basket Woman, Broken Basket Woman, Mid Woman, Changing Woman, Wise Woman, Deepening Woman, Sacred Wise Woman teachings for women on their Mid Woman/moon puase Journey.
Love Your Period Let’s dive into our womb space and work on what’s blocking us from loving our periods. Our wombs are not our enemy, although if you suffer from pain, pms, migraines, back ache, cramps, flooding… it feels like it!
Red Girl Teachingtools for healing your young maiden and menarche girl, looking at these two passages/thresholds.
Womens Honouring Ceremony-  I have created this online teaching with all in information you will need to hold a Womens Honouring Ceremony/ Honouring The Bones/ Closing the Bones/ Post Partum healing/ – whatever you choose to call it!
Reclaiming rites of passage, ceremonies, rituals…By just BEING with each other we can create healing.
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Meditations, Drum Journeys, Visualisations
Alchemical Womb Centre Meditation for Healing & Balance
This womb meditation is a unique healing experience, bringing balance to the hormones, tapping you into the mini energy centres of the cervix, womb and ovaries and bringing opportunity to recalibrate the energy of your womb centre as you coming into health and balance. Within the womb space is the power of alchemy and magic, when we deeply connect into this space…well, who knows what magic we can do!
Healing Visualisations– a powerful collection of healing visualisations: Connecting To Your Inner Wise Woman, Pelvic Fire Bowl and Golden Healing. Feedback- Thank you Rachael, I loved your meditations… I’ve tried quite a few others over the months/years but none that feel as relevant, helpful and effective as yours. I was really able to engage with it and every part felt to be exactly what I needed it to be.
Forgiveness Meditation- I’m sharing one of my forgiveness practices, which I have also added a little part on evolution, for that’s what we are here to do, and often our resentments, anger, fear hold us back from evolving. Our soul wants to grow and evolve…and forgiveness can help us shift into that vibration, forgiveness of others and ourselves.
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